Sunday, June 24, 2012
Fourth Sunday in June
I wasn't blindsided, not totally. I felt it (or something akin) was brewing. There were signs. Prior to the email last week there were periods of silences, missed opportunities to get together, other changes to what had become our routine for weeks prior. Understandable. given her very busy schedule. But, still . . .
Being compatible. Being companionable. Having fun. Enjoying one another on a variety of levels. Being happy. Beginning to fall . . . None individually or collectively necessarily spell success in hammering out a relationship. There can be and certainly were in our case mitigating circumstances.
Though I felt it coming, had time to prepare for the shoe to drop, the reality hit hard and rendered momentarily stunned and incredibly sad. She made it clear she didn't come to this decision lightly, it wasn't something she relished doing. She'd hoped (as did I) for a different outcome.
But now is simply (well, nothing simple about it) not the time.
It has been a week and the time has quelled most of the emotions. There was no acrimony, no hard feelings. We remain in touch and connected through FB. I wish her the greatest of success in her business and life, as she does for me. I feel honored to have met her and grateful for the time we shared. I hope there is an opportunity to chew the philosophical fat with her somewhere down the road for she truly is . . . well, in a word, awesome.
Meanwhile however, I am single and while not in love with said state of affairs, the intent is to embrace my favorite season. Further, the intent is to mitigate the work stresses with more focused determination toward my passions. There is a 5K in the not too distant future calling my name. I will likely walk the course but am not dismissing the possibility of running. The knees will decide. I may even post more frequently, though no promises, as I explore further explorations. The intent is to continue, to adopt daughter's vernacular, "doing me" which is to say, looking out for my family, honoring and cultivating my friendships, and caring for my own well being the best way possible.
But first, breakfast (omelette, preferably spinach and feta but most any will do) and then, laundry. It is Sunday after all.
**and note to my very supportive friends (you know who you are) ya'll rock hard** love you ladies. :-)