Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Every Breath Taken
And I love her. I did (and will continue) to do what I can to honor her wishes and embody her vision with regard to commitment to community and family.
My mother took her final breath Feb. 18, 2013, 7:14 p.m. After all the laboring and uphill battles she finally, simply heaved a final sigh of release and went to sleep.
I was with her virtually every minute of her last day. I trust that I was able to assure her that we were all okay that it was okay for her to leave us, that we all would be fine.
I don't have the where-with-all to speak on the last several days and all that had transpired. I may not be able to expound fully, ever. But for now, please know that her being and leaving has left an imprint.
My brothers and I gathered for a meal Tuesday evening, our last before older brother returns home to Austin, TX Wednesday afternoon. After some conversation we each committed to working toward burying the dysfunction that has defined our existence for the past few decades.
I know it won't change overnight but it is comforting to have heard the notes to a song Mother had been singing for a long, long time.
Rest in Peace, mother dear. I am so honored to have been your voice when you needed it most. I am so pleased we were able to mend our fences and share some meaningful times in these last few weeks.
Thank You for your unabashed show of strength, courage, and compassion.
And thank you all for the words of support, expressions of love, encouragement, and more. My heart is very much warmed by your generous spirits.
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