*Photographs and memories
Christmas cards you sent to me
All that I have are these
To remember you . . .
May is my mother's birthday month. Before my mother's death, the first part of May was always full of preparing Mother's Day celebrations and, of course, the impending birthday celebrations.
Since then, the month is flooded with memories of times gone by.
This year has had that same dynamic with one exception. This year, I can't shake the sense of longing for the relationship I wish had developed between my father and me.
He and I weren't close. We had made peace before his death.
And since then, I've been able to... compartmentalize the mixed emotions.
Or, so I thought.
It feels weird to be weighed with memories of his presence (or lack thereof) while remembering my mom in the shadow of her 85th birthday.
Photographs and memories...
This song is about the longing for a loved one, a romantic partner. It has always hit me differently, these last few weeks, more than ever.
Photographs and memories
Christmas cards you sent to me
All that I have are these
To remember you . . .
Take very gentle care,
*songwriter: Jim Croce
It’s tough to want a relationship that cannot be. Still, you can keep him alive in your heart, where impossible things are still allowed to grow.
ReplyDeleteMay his memory be a blessing
Thank you. I do try to keep the more positive memories in the fore-front; those are indeed a blessing.
DeleteI feel for you, MG. I agree with what 8 said.
ReplyDeleteI'm looking for something like compassion in the way I regard my parents now, but it is hard when there is no physical reality to anchor it...
Sending you love and strength, friend.
Much appreciated, friend. :-)
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