I'm trying, but it isn't working out so well this week. It is taking every single ounce of energy I have to get up, get to work, do my work (to the best of my ability) and make it home, where this week I've been crashing, asleep before eleven only to wake up at 2: 30 ish. Again at 3:30 ish and yet again, at 4:30 ish, only to have to be up by 5:30 and out the door by 7--to do it all over again. I'm trying not to dwell, I'm trying not to wallow. But, I don't feel like doing anything but wallowing. But, she wouldn't like that so again, I rise.
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| May 26, 1940 - Feb. 18, 2013 Peace, be still. |
I'm sorry, D. Sometimes it all seems insurmountable. But, those are the times that we just keep slogging along... because we have to. Does it help to say, 'better times are coming'? I'll say it for you.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, woman.
It does help. Thanks for saying. Hanging in.
DeleteA hard week for me as well, my dad's birthday is tomorrow. So I do understand. It makes everything bigger & more tender, all at once.
ReplyDeleteWe're here. Take care of you.
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I remembered the dates were close. My thoughts are with you. Taking care and taking comfort in the kindess shown.
DeletePersonally I think a good wallow is healthy . . . as long as it doesn't last too long.
ReplyDeletePerhaps you need something fun/adventurous/creative on the horizon to plan and look forward to.
Or just call in sick and pull the covers over your head - which would be my solution : )
Too long. . there is the million dollar slip and slide. The callling sick ship for today has sailed. But I did take some personal time. Using the solo evening to de-compress.
DeleteSomething fun and adventurous would be welcome over the regula drudge of the day-to-day. I shall put my mind on inviting "fun"in for a spell. Maybe serve some ice tea.
DeleteI'm sorry for your loss. It has been 11 months since my Mom passed, and I know how hard grief is. I dread the anniversary of her death - those days take on special meaning. Grief is a process that simply won't be denied. You are doing the right things. I wish I had something to say that made it go away. All I can say is that I care. Like 8thday, I think a good wallow is healthy from time to time. Especially today.
ReplyDeleteIndeed they do. Birthdays and well, every family day. My thoughts are with you and I am sorry for your loss. Time, I am told, lessens the sting. And true, the time in-between the special dates are bearable.
DeleteI am sorry, the reminder times and special days are tough.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself.
That they are. Thank you.
DeleteI try.