Sunday, June 11, 2006

Designer Final

Since becoming a homeowner, I've spent a lot of time viewing home design and decorating shows. I'm looking forward to the eventual gutting and re-fashioning my home to something more in keeping with my personal style and function.

These shows, with various agendas, all have a similar format. The introduction, the before showcased, the work performed and then, the moment we've all been waiting for, the REVEAL.

The abject horror that flashes every so briefly in the eyes of the homeowners as they pretend to just love the plastic flowers glued all over the walls or the dung colored carpet in the family room is worth the price of cable.

For the past year or so I've come to terms with many truths. Namely, my sexuality. Finally, my REVEAL: I am a lesbian. I uttered these four little words for the first time this year. I told my son and my daughter.




There aren't any prospects and thanks to this, a very low libido. But aside of the effects of 17 days (seriously? 17 days!) of a visit from Auntie-I don't-know-what-I'm going-with-her-FLO, I'm feeling better than I have in years; for now there is freedom and hope.

Mind you, I have never so much as kissed a woman, but the desire to hold and be held in kind, long denied, has been there. I've been clueless, powerless and without action for far too long.

9 comments:

  1. Long, long overdue.

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  2. Congrats on the REVEAL... but I think you might actually have to kiss a woman before you can get your toaster.

    Perhaps you could put "kiss a woman" on your to-do list???

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  3. Oh my.
    Oh my oh my.

    Feels good, doesn't it? Revealing not only to yourself but to others you love? How'd the kids respond?

    Now go find yourself a girl to kiss. Easier said than done, I know, but still. There's not much sweeter. :)

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  4. Wow! Also the 17 days with Aunt Flo. She's such a bitch!

    Freedom and hope are two very good traveling companions whilst looking for a girl to kiss.

    Congratulations on your step out of the closet. And how did the kids respond? Inquiring minds and all.

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  5. cj: yes, quite.

    wenwhit: Yeah, I was wondering when the prize patrol was going to show up.

    The kissing of a woman, definitely on the list.

    wordsrock: It does feel good. For now, only the kids know but that's enough, for now.

    Elizabeth: 17 and ...she and I are going to have a very serious talk!

    Thanks for the congrats. The journey has been long and not over by any means.

    The kids reaction? ....well, duh! And then; when you get a girlfriend will she... (series of these type questions) but, they kept saying When ...not If.
    I'm lucky, I think.

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  6. Kids know all. I wonder if they were taking bets. hehehe.

    'When' is good...very good. You are lucky. Your kids sound awesome.

    Be proactive, chica.

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  7. Elizabeth: it wouldn't surprise me.

    Kids. awesome. yeah, sometimes they are.

    Proactive, yep, that is the plan.

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  8. Congrats on your coming out. I love your blog. I would be happy to kiss you too if you were nearby. :)

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  9. Congrats on your coming out. I love your blog. I too came out later in life. Also I would be thrilled to kiss you if your were nearby. :)

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