Nothing but everything is coming to mind.
When in flux, do a list:
My dad died ten years ago (on the 6th). I feel the loss but moreover it is a reminder that coming
in February is the tenth anniversary of my mom's death. It still feels kind of unreal.
My daughter and I have lived together off and on since her birth. She developed habits in her youth that remain today. A couple of said habits bug the bejeebus out of me. She is aware but . . . ugh.
If the actor (my son) were to order business cards he'd barely have room for his name what with all the different things he does. When he's out and about, he's difficult to peg and when people ask, he varies the reply but it is usually, "performer" or some variation therein.
Per the memory tape in some of the social media platforms I've used over the years it appears that I've had bouts of great busy-ness with little reward or progress; usually as related to the work I do (or have done).
Hmm . . .
While I do sketch often, I don't find the window to do it every day. I'm grateful to be part of several groups that help with motivation and inspiration. And I see some pretty amazing sketches; heck, full on works of art. Dang.
I have not cut my hair since making the decision to grow it. However, I have discovered that I am not
the personal hairdresser I was in my youth. Plus, the texture has changed, which has altered some options.
Still, I keep it going. And keep it simple.
It boggles my brain and shakes my soul that I have a forty year old son and a daughter who will
soon be thirty-seven. Yet, a check-out clerk carded me for a case of beer the other day.
I haven't quite decided how to feel about that.
Somewhat.
It's Autumn? Wow.
Take gentle care.
It sounds like in you in a kind of holding pattern. Perhaps use this time to rest and heal before moving on to the next thing?
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